gah, i think i'm in love with 30h!3 D:
it was BOTB last nightttt, and apparentely (whales) were very good ;D
i'm glad it went well, they're great :)
anyway
going up to hospital to get a brain scan in about 15 minutes LOL
good stuff
i'll say i won't be out tonight but we all know i will
wonder what's happenning tonight, mmmmm
in other news,
i miss lulu :'( I hope she reads this so as she texts and tells me whats happening with he life (:
talk to you later blog.
Saturday, 27 February 2010
Friday, 26 February 2010
Thursday, 25 February 2010
right,so, school tomorrow.. i think i'll attend up til lunch and say i'm in pain and go home, which i will be, cause this is agonyyyy.
yeah.. i'll tell my mum instead of wanting to sit with miss wilson all day i'd like to come home at lunch, i think she'll get that.
mmmm.. better go sort my coursework out.
goodnight mr. blog.
yeah.. i'll tell my mum instead of wanting to sit with miss wilson all day i'd like to come home at lunch, i think she'll get that.
mmmm.. better go sort my coursework out.
goodnight mr. blog.
Captain's Log, supplemental. Our computer core has clearly been tampered with and yet there is no sign of a breach of security on board. We have engines back and will attempt to complete our mission. But without a reliable computer, Dr. Stubbs' experiment is in serious jeopardy..
naaaah, i'm just joshin', i'm not really james siberius kirk..
so haaaaiii >< it's 1:05 in the morning and i think tonight i shall mmmm, write a rap out; indeed; ok!
I’m a modern man, a man for the millennium. Digital and smoke free. A diversified multi-cultural, post-modern deconstruction that is anatomically and ecologically incorrect. I’ve been up linked and downloaded, I’ve been inputted and outsourced, I know the upside of downsizing, I know the downside of upgrading. I’m a high-tech low-life. A cutting edge, state-of-the-art bi-coastal multi-tasker and I can give you a gigabyte in a nanosecond!
I’m new wave, but I’m old school and my inner child is outward bound. I’m a hot-wired, heat seeking, warm-hearted cool customer, voice activated and bio-degradable. I interface with my database, my database is in cyberspace, so I’m interactive, I’m hyperactive and from time to time I’m radioactive.
Behind the eight ball, ahead of the curve, ridin the wave, dodgin the bullet and pushin the envelope. I’m on-point, on-task, on-message and off drugs. I’ve got no need for coke and speed. I've got no urge to binge and purge. I’m in-the-moment, on-the-edge, over-the-top and under-the-radar. A high-concept, low-profile, medium-range ballistic missionary. A street-wise smart bomb. A top-gun bottom feeder. I wear power ties, I tell power lies, I take power naps and run victory laps. I’m a totally ongoing big-foot, slam-dunk, rainmaker with a pro-active outreach. A raging workaholic. A working rageaholic. Out of rehab and in denial!
I’ve got a personal trainer, a personal shopper, a personal assistant and a personal agenda. You can’t shut me up. You can’t dumb me down because I’m tireless and I’m wireless, I’m an alpha male on beta-blockers.
I’m a non-believer and an over-achiever, laid-back but fashion-forward. Up-front, down-home, low-rent, high-maintenance. Super-sized, long-lasting, high-definition, fast-acting, oven-ready and built-to-last! I’m a hands-on, foot-loose, knee-jerk head case pretty maturely post-traumatic and I’ve got a love-child that sends me hate mail.
But, I’m feeling, I’m caring, I’m healing, I’m sharing-- a supportive, bonding, nurturing primary care-giver. My output is down, but my income is up. I took a short position on the long bond and my revenue stream has its own cash-flow. I read junk mail, I eat junk food, I buy junk bonds and I watch trash sports! I’m gender specific, capital intensive, user-friendly and lactose intolerant.
I like rough sex. I like tough love. I use the “F” word in my emails and the software on my hard-drive is hardcore--no soft porn.
I bought a microwave at a mini-mall; I bought a mini-van at a mega-store. I eat fast-food in the slow lane. I’m toll-free, bite-sized, ready-to-wear and I come in all sizes. A fully-equipped, factory-authorized, hospital-tested, clinically-proven, scientifically- formulated medical miracle. I’ve been pre-wash, pre-cooked, pre-heated, pre-screened, pre-approved, pre-packaged, post-dated, freeze-dried, double-wrapped, vacuum-packed and, I have an unlimited broadband capacity.
I’m a rude dude, but I’m the real deal. Lean and mean! Cocked, locked and ready-to-rock. Rough, tough and hard to bluff. I take it slow, I go with the flow, I ride with the tide. I’ve got glide in my stride. Drivin and movin, sailin and spinin, jiving and groovin, wailin and winnin. I don’t snooze, so I don’t lose. I keep the pedal to the metal and the rubber on the road. I party hearty and lunch time is crunch time. I’m hangin in, there ain’t no doubt and I’m hangin tough, over and out!
naaaah, i'm just joshin', i'm not really james siberius kirk..
so haaaaiii >< it's 1:05 in the morning and i think tonight i shall mmmm, write a rap out; indeed; ok!
I’m a modern man, a man for the millennium. Digital and smoke free. A diversified multi-cultural, post-modern deconstruction that is anatomically and ecologically incorrect. I’ve been up linked and downloaded, I’ve been inputted and outsourced, I know the upside of downsizing, I know the downside of upgrading. I’m a high-tech low-life. A cutting edge, state-of-the-art bi-coastal multi-tasker and I can give you a gigabyte in a nanosecond!
I’m new wave, but I’m old school and my inner child is outward bound. I’m a hot-wired, heat seeking, warm-hearted cool customer, voice activated and bio-degradable. I interface with my database, my database is in cyberspace, so I’m interactive, I’m hyperactive and from time to time I’m radioactive.
Behind the eight ball, ahead of the curve, ridin the wave, dodgin the bullet and pushin the envelope. I’m on-point, on-task, on-message and off drugs. I’ve got no need for coke and speed. I've got no urge to binge and purge. I’m in-the-moment, on-the-edge, over-the-top and under-the-radar. A high-concept, low-profile, medium-range ballistic missionary. A street-wise smart bomb. A top-gun bottom feeder. I wear power ties, I tell power lies, I take power naps and run victory laps. I’m a totally ongoing big-foot, slam-dunk, rainmaker with a pro-active outreach. A raging workaholic. A working rageaholic. Out of rehab and in denial!
I’ve got a personal trainer, a personal shopper, a personal assistant and a personal agenda. You can’t shut me up. You can’t dumb me down because I’m tireless and I’m wireless, I’m an alpha male on beta-blockers.
I’m a non-believer and an over-achiever, laid-back but fashion-forward. Up-front, down-home, low-rent, high-maintenance. Super-sized, long-lasting, high-definition, fast-acting, oven-ready and built-to-last! I’m a hands-on, foot-loose, knee-jerk head case pretty maturely post-traumatic and I’ve got a love-child that sends me hate mail.
But, I’m feeling, I’m caring, I’m healing, I’m sharing-- a supportive, bonding, nurturing primary care-giver. My output is down, but my income is up. I took a short position on the long bond and my revenue stream has its own cash-flow. I read junk mail, I eat junk food, I buy junk bonds and I watch trash sports! I’m gender specific, capital intensive, user-friendly and lactose intolerant.
I like rough sex. I like tough love. I use the “F” word in my emails and the software on my hard-drive is hardcore--no soft porn.
I bought a microwave at a mini-mall; I bought a mini-van at a mega-store. I eat fast-food in the slow lane. I’m toll-free, bite-sized, ready-to-wear and I come in all sizes. A fully-equipped, factory-authorized, hospital-tested, clinically-proven, scientifically- formulated medical miracle. I’ve been pre-wash, pre-cooked, pre-heated, pre-screened, pre-approved, pre-packaged, post-dated, freeze-dried, double-wrapped, vacuum-packed and, I have an unlimited broadband capacity.
I’m a rude dude, but I’m the real deal. Lean and mean! Cocked, locked and ready-to-rock. Rough, tough and hard to bluff. I take it slow, I go with the flow, I ride with the tide. I’ve got glide in my stride. Drivin and movin, sailin and spinin, jiving and groovin, wailin and winnin. I don’t snooze, so I don’t lose. I keep the pedal to the metal and the rubber on the road. I party hearty and lunch time is crunch time. I’m hangin in, there ain’t no doubt and I’m hangin tough, over and out!
Wednesday, 24 February 2010
love;
No one actually needs another person or another person's love to survive. Love is when we have irrationally convinced ourselves that we do. They should tell you when you’re born: have a suitcase heart, be ready to travel.
and if it is a 'real' emotion and not just in our minds, I don't like it. love is a greedy toddler who knows only the word 'mine. And it is a lie that people who love each other must know everything about each other, Love must occasionally allow for a gap. Unrequited love isn't that bad, there's a pleasure to loving someone even when you know there's no chance in them loving you back. The pain i've felt let me know i was still alive. In my opinion, When you love someone, you put their needs before your own. No matter how inconceivable those needs are; no matter how fucked up; no matter how much it maks you feel like you're ripping yourself into pieces. Many times with guys I have been a victim of my own optimism.
Physical attraction is not an option. The difference between sex and love is that sex relieves tension and love causes it. Still, Sex without love is as hollow and ridiculous as love without sex.
No one actually needs another person or another person's love to survive. Love is when we have irrationally convinced ourselves that we do. They should tell you when you’re born: have a suitcase heart, be ready to travel.
and if it is a 'real' emotion and not just in our minds, I don't like it. love is a greedy toddler who knows only the word 'mine. And it is a lie that people who love each other must know everything about each other, Love must occasionally allow for a gap. Unrequited love isn't that bad, there's a pleasure to loving someone even when you know there's no chance in them loving you back. The pain i've felt let me know i was still alive. In my opinion, When you love someone, you put their needs before your own. No matter how inconceivable those needs are; no matter how fucked up; no matter how much it maks you feel like you're ripping yourself into pieces. Many times with guys I have been a victim of my own optimism.
Physical attraction is not an option. The difference between sex and love is that sex relieves tension and love causes it. Still, Sex without love is as hollow and ridiculous as love without sex.
showing the damage with the bandage off.
WHATTA BABE.
I do not need any more hassle atm :'(
when i absolutely plaster make-up on you can't reaaally see it though, especially with the bandage, i don't want anyone to :L cause all my friends will be like :O:O:O lulu and such can, but she'll be chilled regardless :L
I hate my friends fussing over me, it makes me feel awful.
I'm considering not going into school, the pain killers have just warn off and i can hardly type. but i have nothing else to do, because i certainly won't be able to sleep. I was crying constantly yesterday and I was crying for gravity. It had sent me down onto the floor, and I'd thought that meant something, like a sign, but maybe that's just the direction that all things tend to flow.
It's funny how i'm more honest in a blog that anyone in the world could look up and read than I could be talking to friends or samily. Or maybe it's sad. One or the other. Sometimes it’s hard to tell.
Wounds are like water set to boil – they heal best left unwatched
Tuesday, 23 February 2010
Sunday, 21 February 2010
Tuesday, 16 February 2010
Monday, 15 February 2010
mmmm. i've got my darling lulu staying tonight, so that should be good.
today was weird, or not what i expected, or something.
as for camping on wednesday - i'm a bit concerned. see, wednesday nights are the night i go to my dads, and i'm going to have to come up with a reaaaaally good excuse to get out of it, and even if i do, i'll still feel baaaaaaaad. :/
gaaaaah! i shall figure something out.
tomorrowtomorrowtomorrowtomorrow
pancakespancakespancakespancakes <3
i hope i see a feeeeew more of my friends tomorrowww D;
today was rather bleek.
missing jojo big much :(
talk more later. xo
today was weird, or not what i expected, or something.
as for camping on wednesday - i'm a bit concerned. see, wednesday nights are the night i go to my dads, and i'm going to have to come up with a reaaaaally good excuse to get out of it, and even if i do, i'll still feel baaaaaaaad. :/
gaaaaah! i shall figure something out.
tomorrowtomorrowtomorrowtomorrow
pancakespancakespancakespancakes <3
i hope i see a feeeeew more of my friends tomorrowww D;
today was rather bleek.
missing jojo big much :(
talk more later. xo
Sunday, 14 February 2010
Friday, 12 February 2010
I am in love,
With what we are,
Not what we should be.
And I am,
I am starstruck.
With every part,
Of this whole story.
So if it's just tonight,
The Animal inside,
Let it live and die.
Like it's the end of time,
Like everything inside,
Let it live and die.
This is our last chance,
Give me your hands.
'Cause our world is spinning at the speed of light.
The night is fading, our hearts are racing.
Now just come and love me like we're gonna die.
well, charlotte's was interesting.
With what we are,
Not what we should be.
And I am,
I am starstruck.
With every part,
Of this whole story.
So if it's just tonight,
The Animal inside,
Let it live and die.
Like it's the end of time,
Like everything inside,
Let it live and die.
This is our last chance,
Give me your hands.
'Cause our world is spinning at the speed of light.
The night is fading, our hearts are racing.
Now just come and love me like we're gonna die.
well, charlotte's was interesting.
Thursday, 11 February 2010
Wednesday, 10 February 2010
what's next? gays in the military!?
wifi on a plane?! sorcery! well, at least the pagans got something right. I was a coach flight to neice for a holiday, squeezed between two large sasquatch-like people who i pray could't see what I was watching, because my brother had stole the laptop for five minutes and linked me up to some german porno that I could'nt get off the screen, damnnn...
ahahaaa.. just kidding; I don't pray.
wifi on a plane?! sorcery! well, at least the pagans got something right. I was a coach flight to neice for a holiday, squeezed between two large sasquatch-like people who i pray could't see what I was watching, because my brother had stole the laptop for five minutes and linked me up to some german porno that I could'nt get off the screen, damnnn...
ahahaaa.. just kidding; I don't pray.
i'm just really sick. I don't mean physically, apparentely i'm clinically depressed, yipeeee. Ugh. I guess I kinda knew like, just kept second guessing. I always thought being depressed as a teenager was a bit of a cliche.. but I suppose in some cases it isn't. Meh, I don't know about anything anymore. My mums gonna talk to my form teacher about it tomorrow, i'd say theres a high chance i'll get pulled out of class after she rings in. For the "pupil support" speech. I don't need pupil support. I dunno what I need, but it's something. I just feel empty.
Tuesday, 9 February 2010
i should probably stay up really late
no, no i am not going to school tomorrow
it can fuck right off
i'm sure i'm going to do wonderfully in my gcse's
i don't really care as long as i get into met tbh
4 gcse's? easy pieeee
ugh, this whole insomnia thing is getting a joke
getting blood tests done tomorrow cause i keep fainting
yaaaay, i wonder what's wrong with me this time
oh dear, hanna's crying and my mums downstairs,
better go tend to her :)
goodnight blog. talk to you tomorrow. love you long time babes ;D
xoxoxo
ps - for anyone who's interested in my social networking life..
http://www.bebo.com/Profile.jsp?MemberId=10333741719
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/profile.php?ref=profile&id=100000291860194
http://twitter.com/Kmooooooooooo
pss - I NEED TO GET A LIFE AWAY FROM MY LAPTOP.
I think.. at the end of the day, what makes us human, is the ability to be thankful for what comes next. Whether it's being friends after heartbreak, simply finding someone new, or being able to say that you honestly don't care about them anymore. To be honest; after being numb for so long I've forgotten how I feel certain things.. about certain people. It's too much work to feel so much.
But, alas, we're human. So we get up, dust ourselves down, recompose ourselves, and don't go back to save time and space. even if we know there's still something there..
I'll find other things to care about. That's the thing about life isn't it? you grow up.. and you move on.
when we're little, we're told that you "grow up, get a job, fall in love, get married, buy a house, have kids" but it's not as simple as that. It's alot stranger, and difficult, and dramatic, and oh.. oh, so much better.
It's not that i'm overly upset or anything like that, i'm totally fine. I just got a weird sensation when I found out. In some way - it was like a relief. I don't have to try and impress anymore, because I don't have to try and win you over. You scare me so much sometimes. It's hard to believe that you feel the way you do when you seem like you've got it all together. You're too smart, and I don't like that you've realised how easy it is for you to manipulate everyone; the old you would've never dreamed to act the way you are atm. But i'll stick by you, and make sure you're okay, and that you don't lose yourself too much. Because that's what friends are for.
I'm in such a fragile state at the minute. I'm glad I know how to hide it. I act so happy around my friends, all I ever do is try to keep them happy. And that's comforting in a way, because it makes me feel like a good person.
I realised recently, that I like who I am. I used to do everything for myself, but nowadays it's all about my friends + family. <3 I don't even care what I look like anymore. I used to bee so vain. I rarely wear make-up anymore and when I do, it's simply for a bit more confidence. I don't care what anyone thinks of me, if you hate me, that's fine, chances are I don't like you much ither.
As I don't want to stop writing yet, and i'm in a very loving mood, i've decided to write a paragraph about each of my friends.. so here goes;
Lulu: You make me so happy, and I can't go more than 24 hours without speaking to you, you're the perfect bestfriend, and I couldn't ask for better. Staying at your house is hilarious, and you always know how to make me laugh. You give me the feeling, that we'll always be best friends, and out of everyone i've ever met, you're the one I know I won't ever lose.
Kelsey: you're pure evil, and i love it. but more to the point - i love you. you're simply what i go to school for. and i think you're great. :) you're funny, and strong, and happy, and lovable and you're such a good friend, i would've killed mrs finney by now if it wasn't for you
jojo: you're the best dance partner in the world. :D i love your sense of humour, and how much fun you are when we're out places that have loud music ;D when i think of you, i think of vodka. and when i need cheering up and a night out - you officially always have you be there :D
peter: you're such a drama queen :) lmao, you're hilarious. oh the saturday nights we've had together bahaaaa. you're my best guy friend, and it's awesomeeee. you drink too much. *shakes fist, but i still loves yaaaa. :)
aaron: you're more humourous than you could ever possibly imagine ;D but assides from that, you've helped me through a hell of alot and i have a hugeeee ammount of thankyous for that. Weekends wouldn't be the same without you. (:
alistairr: i think you're a pretty remarkable person. :) you're the person i'll turn to through absolutely anything - i like to think that that feeling is mutual :) you need to come down more often though :D thank you for well.. everything :L :D
xoxoxoxo
But, alas, we're human. So we get up, dust ourselves down, recompose ourselves, and don't go back to save time and space. even if we know there's still something there..
I'll find other things to care about. That's the thing about life isn't it? you grow up.. and you move on.
when we're little, we're told that you "grow up, get a job, fall in love, get married, buy a house, have kids" but it's not as simple as that. It's alot stranger, and difficult, and dramatic, and oh.. oh, so much better.
It's not that i'm overly upset or anything like that, i'm totally fine. I just got a weird sensation when I found out. In some way - it was like a relief. I don't have to try and impress anymore, because I don't have to try and win you over. You scare me so much sometimes. It's hard to believe that you feel the way you do when you seem like you've got it all together. You're too smart, and I don't like that you've realised how easy it is for you to manipulate everyone; the old you would've never dreamed to act the way you are atm. But i'll stick by you, and make sure you're okay, and that you don't lose yourself too much. Because that's what friends are for.
I'm in such a fragile state at the minute. I'm glad I know how to hide it. I act so happy around my friends, all I ever do is try to keep them happy. And that's comforting in a way, because it makes me feel like a good person.
I realised recently, that I like who I am. I used to do everything for myself, but nowadays it's all about my friends + family. <3 I don't even care what I look like anymore. I used to bee so vain. I rarely wear make-up anymore and when I do, it's simply for a bit more confidence. I don't care what anyone thinks of me, if you hate me, that's fine, chances are I don't like you much ither.
As I don't want to stop writing yet, and i'm in a very loving mood, i've decided to write a paragraph about each of my friends.. so here goes;
Lulu: You make me so happy, and I can't go more than 24 hours without speaking to you, you're the perfect bestfriend, and I couldn't ask for better. Staying at your house is hilarious, and you always know how to make me laugh. You give me the feeling, that we'll always be best friends, and out of everyone i've ever met, you're the one I know I won't ever lose.
Kelsey: you're pure evil, and i love it. but more to the point - i love you. you're simply what i go to school for. and i think you're great. :) you're funny, and strong, and happy, and lovable and you're such a good friend, i would've killed mrs finney by now if it wasn't for you
jojo: you're the best dance partner in the world. :D i love your sense of humour, and how much fun you are when we're out places that have loud music ;D when i think of you, i think of vodka. and when i need cheering up and a night out - you officially always have you be there :D
peter: you're such a drama queen :) lmao, you're hilarious. oh the saturday nights we've had together bahaaaa. you're my best guy friend, and it's awesomeeee. you drink too much. *shakes fist, but i still loves yaaaa. :)
aaron: you're more humourous than you could ever possibly imagine ;D but assides from that, you've helped me through a hell of alot and i have a hugeeee ammount of thankyous for that. Weekends wouldn't be the same without you. (:
alistairr: i think you're a pretty remarkable person. :) you're the person i'll turn to through absolutely anything - i like to think that that feeling is mutual :) you need to come down more often though :D thank you for well.. everything :L :D
xoxoxoxo
THIS MADE MY DAY;
"What movie badass are you?"
Kirsty took the ""What movie badass are you?"" quiz and the result is Darth Vader.
You are Darth Vader. You are strong of will, excellent in combat, mighty, feared, and "more machine now than man." You can take down almost any enemy with your angry crimson blade, adn you are the best there is. Not to mention, your offspring keep showing up everywhere. Good for you Lord Vader.
Kirsty took the ""What movie badass are you?"" quiz and the result is Darth Vader.
You are Darth Vader. You are strong of will, excellent in combat, mighty, feared, and "more machine now than man." You can take down almost any enemy with your angry crimson blade, adn you are the best there is. Not to mention, your offspring keep showing up everywhere. Good for you Lord Vader.
I can't be assedddd!
I don't want to stay off tomorrow, because my attendance is awful. But i'm sick. And I seriously cannot be assed. I might get lulu to stay off again tomorrow and come down and see meeee. Cause I miss the babe tbh.
Adiosssssssss :P
Adiosssssssss :P
Monday, 8 February 2010
so I was off today. I feel like shit. But i didn't make this blog to complain about my life so I digresss. (: Charlotte's house partys this weekend. That should be good. I'm hoping that it'll take my mind off valentines day. I haven't looked at my phone all day. :| the worlds gone craaaaaaaaaaazzzzyyy; nuff said.
Sunday, 7 February 2010
Friday, 5 February 2010
Thursday, 4 February 2010
Wednesday, 3 February 2010
As I sit here and drink orangeade like it's alcohol and watch "how twilight should have ended" - youtube it bitches. I wonder if skipping school today was worth it. On the bright side, me and lulu went to the 20 fo' hour garage and got some yummy stuffff. It's chinese new year on the 13th, so that should be good. I'm still deciding whether I actually wanna come out this weekend or if I just want to lie in bed all day and tell everyone who rings or texts me to fuck off. Going out with the peeps would certainly be more eventful but it's just not good weather atm to go out on the streets drinking, and I really would rather stay faaaar away from Dan Campbell's considering that my Chuck Norris like father goes there. Me and lulu have decided that since we will be earning EMA after the summer, we're going to save £10 everytime we get paid. And if we do that fooor say two years, between us we'll have about £960 quid, and i'll be getting £1000 for my 18th.. and she'll be getting like £120 (and this is adressed to lulu - YEOOOOOOOO) so we'll have quiteeee alot of money, ANDDDD, hopefully, if we can convince them, we're going to get 2 more friends, preferably guys, just to even it out lol, to do the same thing, even if they're a bit older, then we'll be grand and we can rent our own flat or house or something in Belfast when all of us are at college up there! :D which would be epic winnnn. But, that requires alot of planning, which i'm willing to do cause like i'd fucking love to. But more on that on a later dateee.
ADIOSSSSS!
ADIOSSSSS!
Tuesday, 2 February 2010
bitch
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck yoooooou kmooooooooooooo xD
its not my fault that your just jealous cause im your bestest bud and you cant fuck me.
build a fucking bridge and tally on over its you weeeeeeeeee slutttttttttttttt :P. i will rape you hardcore style! WUV YOU :D xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Monday, 1 February 2010
general chit-chat
"Kiirrssstttyyyy ;(*) says:
*hey alistairrrr,
*am i your hero? ;D
- alistair; let's do something real says:
*cleaaaarly ;D"
oh fuck yeah ;D well today was fun on the un-educational side of things. When it comes to school and coursework and shit, i'm totally fucked :L science is fine, cause tbh he cares when he happens to remember so like what ev's. As for history, i'm hopefully gonna get my mummy to write me a note ^.^ but that'll only buy me a day sooo I do have to find it, it's bad, there was soooo much work in that book D; it is somewhere though, if i could pull myself away from social networking long enough i'd probably be able to find it tbh. Unfortunetly i'm a complete twat so that won't be happening. As for all other subjects, i'm pretty sweeeet.
Love life wiseeee.. i'd like to say it's complicated, but it's not. It's just painful and stressful and worrying. He has no idea how scared I am about him <3 if he did anything stupid, man, I dunno what i'd do. But he won't listen to me, so I guess the best I can do is listen to his problems and try and help, which I can't. I'm still in alot of pain health wise. And i still want him to fix it, even though that's impossible, and even though he doesn't care. AWK WELL. Life's a bitch.
Tbh, Lady Gaga scares me a bit, don't get me wrong, i love that carzy bitch ;D but i think i'd almost be afraid to go to one of her concerts :-o anyways, i derw her tonight! take a loooook in the next posttt! (:
adios!
xxxx
*hey alistairrrr,
*am i your hero? ;D
- alistair; let's do something real says:
*cleaaaarly ;D"
oh fuck yeah ;D well today was fun on the un-educational side of things. When it comes to school and coursework and shit, i'm totally fucked :L science is fine, cause tbh he cares when he happens to remember so like what ev's. As for history, i'm hopefully gonna get my mummy to write me a note ^.^ but that'll only buy me a day sooo I do have to find it, it's bad, there was soooo much work in that book D; it is somewhere though, if i could pull myself away from social networking long enough i'd probably be able to find it tbh. Unfortunetly i'm a complete twat so that won't be happening. As for all other subjects, i'm pretty sweeeet.
Love life wiseeee.. i'd like to say it's complicated, but it's not. It's just painful and stressful and worrying. He has no idea how scared I am about him <3 if he did anything stupid, man, I dunno what i'd do. But he won't listen to me, so I guess the best I can do is listen to his problems and try and help, which I can't. I'm still in alot of pain health wise. And i still want him to fix it, even though that's impossible, and even though he doesn't care. AWK WELL. Life's a bitch.
Tbh, Lady Gaga scares me a bit, don't get me wrong, i love that carzy bitch ;D but i think i'd almost be afraid to go to one of her concerts :-o anyways, i derw her tonight! take a loooook in the next posttt! (:
adios!
xxxx
some people really fuck me off.. and when i say 'some' i actually mean all.
everyone's a total wanker. seriously.
i don't know why, but i'v eactually gotten to the point where social contact just seems like a complete waste of time.
i mean (first of all; i love my friends very much but it has to be said, i'm fed up with them drinking, and i know that i sound like a total hypocrite because i drink but they all become SUCH drama queens, i mean they are a few like aaron and lulu and johnny that just stay funny as fuck :L but most of them just turn into moany wee dickheads that cry and do very very very bad things and then blame achohol.
"OH NO, but i was drunk so it's okay"
NO IT'S NOT. If you're going to do that when you're pissed then stop fucking drinking, dick.
everyone's a total wanker. seriously.
i don't know why, but i'v eactually gotten to the point where social contact just seems like a complete waste of time.
i mean (first of all; i love my friends very much but it has to be said, i'm fed up with them drinking, and i know that i sound like a total hypocrite because i drink but they all become SUCH drama queens, i mean they are a few like aaron and lulu and johnny that just stay funny as fuck :L but most of them just turn into moany wee dickheads that cry and do very very very bad things and then blame achohol.
"OH NO, but i was drunk so it's okay"
NO IT'S NOT. If you're going to do that when you're pissed then stop fucking drinking, dick.
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